Yesterday morning, I woke up feeling glad that it was an Early Release Day at school. That meant I'd only have students until 12 and then I could "relax" a bit as we just had professional development in the afternoon.
I was helping present the prof. dev. (with my assigned job as "master clicker" on the computer so I wouldn't have to stand and talk) and after just a bit I went to go get a cushion to sit on because my back started killing me. As I walked to my room and back I felt more pressure and tingly twinges.
As soon as the session was over I decided to go ahead and leave. I called my mom and Nick, and somewhere between the two calls I went from "thank goodness I only have 2 weeks" to "I can't do this another day". I had a lot of guilt after Colson was born at 31 weeks. I felt that it was my fault, or that I should have been more in tune with what was happening to my body. Now I am listening to every feeling because I can't bear to go into labor all because I wanted to tough it out for a few more weeks and overdid it. So, I thought it would be a good idea to go in and be checked and I headed on to the doctor's office.
Once I was there, they asked me what symptoms I had experienced. I explained what I felt and they decided to do a non-stress test and exam. The non-stress test showed that the contractions I was feeling were very mild, nothing more than Braxton Hicks and definitely not productive at this time. It also showed that the baby is doing very well...she explained that the monitor showed "accelerations"(?) which indicated that our little ButterBean is neurologically intact and thriving. The exam revealed that my cervix is still closed, but is presenting as "soft" which can be normal, but they suggested that I limit my activity. The increased pressure I was feeling was likely to to the baby being so low. She said that the baby was very low and a lot of the bumps and kicks I feel are "down there" and the position will naturally create more pressure.
This visit changed my last day from next Friday to yesterday. Now I can focus on resting, nesting, and growing this precious baby.
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Sunday, September 30, 2012
27 weeks
27 weeks
The Belly:
Hi Point: I made it through my glucose test, one more week of work, and finally was able to order a pair of cords from Gap (every other time I tried, the coupon code didn't work for cords). Now I will have 3 pair of pants to wear (bodies change a lot from being pregnant at 23 and being pregnant at 30, so not a whole lot fits).
Also, Etsy has a registry system (who knew?). It's only Wedding Registry, but I just made our wedding date Butter Bean's due date and then added a few lovelies. I could add stuff on here all day long!
Check it: Butter Bean's Etsy Registry
Just look at the cuteness!
Lo Point: The fatigue. I could really do about a 2 day work week. I'm pretty good Monday and Tuesday. By Wednesday I am getting up about 15-20 minutes later and by Friday I am ready to take a nap at work. Two more weeks until I go out.
Siblings: Colson thinks it's funny to tell the baby to pop on out so we can play, but we've had to talk with him about how this is not what we want to happen. We explained how he was really sick when he "popped" out early and we were scared because he had to stay in the hospital. It's really hard for he and Lilly-Belle to understand...they're just ready to meet their brother or sister!
Cravings: Coffee with pumpkin spice creamer, Japanese food and sushi, doughnut holes from Fancy Pastry.
Lbs: +28 I also want to clarify...my doctor thinks I've only gained 19 lbs. I am counting from my pre-pregnancy goal weight (and where I want to be long-term, after baby). There was a 9 lb gain from the point we started trying, got pregnant, and then had our first "official" visit when they took my starting weight. If I'm wanting to feel better, I go with their count ;)
Looking Forward To: The 2 week work countdown. I know it will be best for baby and for me.
The Belly:
Hi Point: I made it through my glucose test, one more week of work, and finally was able to order a pair of cords from Gap (every other time I tried, the coupon code didn't work for cords). Now I will have 3 pair of pants to wear (bodies change a lot from being pregnant at 23 and being pregnant at 30, so not a whole lot fits).
Check it: Butter Bean's Etsy Registry
Just look at the cuteness!
Lo Point: The fatigue. I could really do about a 2 day work week. I'm pretty good Monday and Tuesday. By Wednesday I am getting up about 15-20 minutes later and by Friday I am ready to take a nap at work. Two more weeks until I go out.
Siblings: Colson thinks it's funny to tell the baby to pop on out so we can play, but we've had to talk with him about how this is not what we want to happen. We explained how he was really sick when he "popped" out early and we were scared because he had to stay in the hospital. It's really hard for he and Lilly-Belle to understand...they're just ready to meet their brother or sister!
Cravings: Coffee with pumpkin spice creamer, Japanese food and sushi, doughnut holes from Fancy Pastry.
Lbs: +28 I also want to clarify...my doctor thinks I've only gained 19 lbs. I am counting from my pre-pregnancy goal weight (and where I want to be long-term, after baby). There was a 9 lb gain from the point we started trying, got pregnant, and then had our first "official" visit when they took my starting weight. If I'm wanting to feel better, I go with their count ;)
Looking Forward To: The 2 week work countdown. I know it will be best for baby and for me.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Mad Math Skills
Tell me these kids don't have some mad math skills!
(Yes, they're sideways...I have no idea how to fix it?)
(Yes, they're sideways...I have no idea how to fix it?)
Sunday, September 23, 2012
26 weeks
26 weeks
The Belly: Changing up the pic a bit this week because I do not intend on getting "fixed up" today.
Hi Point: After this week, it's kind of a stretch here. I'd have to say my high point was that I am now officially more than half way done with my 17p shots. 11 down, 10 to go!
Lo Point: Well...I had a really bad night on Wednesday night. I just couldn't get comfortable and my back felt like it was cramping. I ended up leaving work early the next day and my midwife said that it was inflammation and spasms. She wrote me a prescription and put me out of work for Friday.
Then we had "the talk". I knew it was coming, but in my mind I really thought I had about another month before we needed to talk about when I'd go out. I was sure that with the job I was doing now plus the weekly shots, I'd be able to work longer.
Reality is, I just can't do it. (Enter guilt.) We decided that I'll try for 3 more weeks and that will put me at 30 weeks (because I'm really 27 weeks tomorrow). So...there's that.
Siblings: No biggies here. The Bug is trying our patience on a regular basis, but I guess we can just say we're in training for #3. Sometimes she is like having 2 children. :) Colson is being his regular sweet self.
Cravings: Not a whole lot. Chocolate milk, maybe?
Lbs: +26 (I won't even go into what the doctor's scale said. I'll just say I was wearing my boots and I didn't get to take them off. Boots are heavy y'all!)
Looking Forward To: **This was last week's hope -->Nothing big this week...just wanting to make it through with minimal back pain and possibly a bit more sleep.**Needless to say, I don't think it happened. I think I'll stick to the same hope for this week.
The Belly: Changing up the pic a bit this week because I do not intend on getting "fixed up" today.
Hi Point: After this week, it's kind of a stretch here. I'd have to say my high point was that I am now officially more than half way done with my 17p shots. 11 down, 10 to go!
Lo Point: Well...I had a really bad night on Wednesday night. I just couldn't get comfortable and my back felt like it was cramping. I ended up leaving work early the next day and my midwife said that it was inflammation and spasms. She wrote me a prescription and put me out of work for Friday.
Then we had "the talk". I knew it was coming, but in my mind I really thought I had about another month before we needed to talk about when I'd go out. I was sure that with the job I was doing now plus the weekly shots, I'd be able to work longer.
Reality is, I just can't do it. (Enter guilt.) We decided that I'll try for 3 more weeks and that will put me at 30 weeks (because I'm really 27 weeks tomorrow). So...there's that.
Siblings: No biggies here. The Bug is trying our patience on a regular basis, but I guess we can just say we're in training for #3. Sometimes she is like having 2 children. :) Colson is being his regular sweet self.
Cravings: Not a whole lot. Chocolate milk, maybe?
Lbs: +26 (I won't even go into what the doctor's scale said. I'll just say I was wearing my boots and I didn't get to take them off. Boots are heavy y'all!)
Looking Forward To: **This was last week's hope -->Nothing big this week...just wanting to make it through with minimal back pain and possibly a bit more sleep.**Needless to say, I don't think it happened. I think I'll stick to the same hope for this week.
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Express Yourself
How did we ever express our thoughts with humor before someecards??? I'll never know.
Yes, yes we do.
Because I will always think of my suite mates as my Golden Girls (and I'll always be Blanche)! Love you Lyds, Ash, and Erin!!
Housewife Problems. And I don't iron...ever. I can't do it because I'm left handed. Seriously.
My true friends know this to be true. ;)
When else would it be??
These could go on all day! Do you have any favs?
Sunday, September 16, 2012
25 weeks
25 weeks...feeling like 35. Oof!
The Belly:
Hi Point: Definitely the weather!! I have way more belly friendly clothes for summer weather, but I will do with fewer outfits just to enjoy this beautiful fall weather! I've been able to break out the boots, which is nice because they will fit no matter how big the belly gets (we won't mention the swelling that will come later).
Lo Point: Finding out about the heartache of another lady who is expecting. I wrote about it yesterday, and I will continue to pray for her and her precious little girl.
Siblings: Here is Colson's portrait of me from a school writing assignment. There is Daddy, looking all svelte and there is Mommy with an enormous belly. And that gray blob...that's little ButterBean. :)
Cravings: Reese's Puffs Cereal, lots and lots of milk
Lbs: +23 or 24 (Can we just stop the madness now and quit counting???)
Looking Forward To: Nothing big this week...just wanting to make it through with minimal back pain and possibly a bit more sleep.
The Belly:
Hi Point: Definitely the weather!! I have way more belly friendly clothes for summer weather, but I will do with fewer outfits just to enjoy this beautiful fall weather! I've been able to break out the boots, which is nice because they will fit no matter how big the belly gets (we won't mention the swelling that will come later).
Lo Point: Finding out about the heartache of another lady who is expecting. I wrote about it yesterday, and I will continue to pray for her and her precious little girl.
Siblings: Here is Colson's portrait of me from a school writing assignment. There is Daddy, looking all svelte and there is Mommy with an enormous belly. And that gray blob...that's little ButterBean. :)
Cravings: Reese's Puffs Cereal, lots and lots of milk
Lbs: +23 or 24 (Can we just stop the madness now and quit counting???)
Looking Forward To: Nothing big this week...just wanting to make it through with minimal back pain and possibly a bit more sleep.
Friday, September 14, 2012
Just One Click
It wasn't long before my chest was tightening, I had a lump in my throat, and tears stung my eyes. This woman is pregnant...not much further along than I am. And the prognosis for her baby is not good. I don't know what to say, what to do with what I've read. My heart breaks for her. For her family. For her children.
I don't even know how to finish writing what I'm feeling. I went back and read through my posts about this pregnancy, sure that I had written about the fears I've had since early on, but I couldn't find anything. Maybe writing it would make it too real, maybe because there have been no red flags about little ButterBean, or maybe I'm just paranoid because Colson and Lilly-Belle were both premature so how could something not go wrong with this pregnancy. I have written that I feel like I'm carrying low which makes me nervous, but throughout my pregnancy I've encountered, by chance (or perhaps not), stories of women who are carrying or have recently delivered babies with special needs. I don't know what to make of it.
But tonight, this sweet woman's story has touched me. I still don't know what I should say... I guess a start would be with my prayers. I pray for her, for her baby girl, for her family and friends, and the doctors that care for her. They are in my heart.
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