I posted here about my little bout of OCD that was causing me some anxiety and unfortunately I can't say that I've stopped checking the county website for job vacancies multiple times a day.
Last night, just before I went to bed, I checked it one last time. What?!? New job postings! Who posts jobs at 9:00 at night? Apparently our county. And one just happens to be a first grade position at the school less than a mile from where we are building our home. (It's not my first choice; I'd rather take a reading position, but none have posted.) Needless to say, my good friend anxiety came back and brought along another friend named insomnia.
I lay awake in the bed last night for hours thinking about the job and different scenarios that could play out. Then I'd try to NOT think about it so I'd think about the house. I seriously mentally constructed and decorated each room in our house last night. I thought about hardwoods, ceiling fans, shower curtains, tile, cabinets, bedding, lamps, landscaping, faucets, and on and on.
Clearly the distraction was a problem in itself. As if anxiety and insomnia weren't enough, a third friend came and crashed the party...paranoia. I felt a pain on my foot which (obviously) was a spider bite. I continued to imagine the spider crawling around in my bed. I may or may not have slept with my legs crossed to avoid having this imaginary spider bite me on my lady bits. Weird, huh? Yeah, that's what lack of sleep will do.
To sum it up, I'm dragging today....anxiety, insomnia, and paranoia--the three worst friends anyone could have.